my mind is flip flopping at the moment. catching up on a few blogs, the morning went from wanting to grab the kiddo and the car keys and hightail it to the mountains or maybe the beach...needless to say M was NOT INTERESTED AT ALL....she's all hunkered down under her covers...mommmm go away!
then i considered grabbing the dog and going for a hike at Redwood, or maybe Strawberry....haven't thrown that one out entirely....then i thought about swimming and the lake anza statement i made the other day...i'm hoping a friend will be free to go with me as of yet i haven't heard back...fine by me cause it will allow me to put it off longer...not that i have any trouble doing that anyways...
then i started picking up around the house and T woke up and i complained to him for awhile about woes of being an assistant....oops, i digress....where was i! ah yes swimming, maybe i'd go to the Y instead but M wants to go to Yoga later and do i want to go to the Y twice. M seems to want to go more often and so i've attempted to be more available when she does which means setting my personal agenda/goals aside and supporting her budding interest in working out...that sounded better in my head..now it just looks like another lame excuse, the Y is 2 miles away and parking is FREE!
so back to the hike with the dog....there was a time i OWNED the east bay trails...i was never fast but boy i could go long....right now i'm struggling with the FACT that i'm nowhere close to my previous fitness level...and i've been avoiding the trails because ....i don't even know...it's stupid.
OK, i need to stop belly aching get my ass up and running or hiking or swimming or something.
i ended up taking Brandy to Strawberry.
Brandy is a bit of handful and needs to be on-leash for most of the time. I let her off for while once i tired her out on the big hill that connects the lower and upper sections. she was panting and frothing like crazy but wouldn't drink when i offered. we hiked to the bench that over looks the university and still she wouldn't drink...weird for all the huffing and puffing.
the hike was bittersweet. instead of appreciating the beauty all around all i could think of was how NOT ready i am to run up here. i avoided eye contact with any runner i came upon and i because it was hot and i wasn't running i wore my sandals with vibram soles and ended up with hot spots on both toe-balls.
getting back into the swing of things ain't going to be easy.
definitely worth it but definitely not easy.