A few days ago I stepped on the scale at work, now I'm depressed. The scale at the gym last week actually showed that I lost 4lbs, putting me at 153lbs....then I go and step on the scale at work this past monday and it states a whopping 165 lbs. WTF!!!
So, initially upon stepping off the work scale, I dismiss the information, it's electronic and subject to error in my opinion! The patients at work are always getting their wts wrong, which drives the dietician crazy ....anyways, I did my track workout on tuesday and yesterday was a rest day, but today I can't get going.
It's thursday, which as I've stated before, we're under staffed and my workload is heavier, so strolling in at 10 am is not a good idea. I just need to get this off my chest. Am I pushing too hard in preparation for this race and tweeking myself out at the lack of visual evidence?
Oh god, I hate hate hate that I'm focusing on the fucking numbers, but it's worse cuz this body doesn't feel like doing much either.
Maybe it's the gloomy weather that's got me down.
I've packed my running gear, maybe my mood will change this afternoon.
Thursday, February 02, 2006
Get Over It!
A few days ago I stepped on the scale at work, now I'm depressed. The scale at the gym last week actually showed that I lost 4lbs, putting me at 153lbs....then I go and step on the scale at work this past monday and it states a whopping 165 lbs. WTF!!!
So, initially upon stepping off the work scale, I dismiss the information, it's electronic and subject to error in my opinion! The patients at work are always getting their wts wrong, which drives the dietician crazy ....anyways, I did my track workout on tuesday and yesterday was a rest day, but today I can't get going.
It's thursday, which as I've stated before, we're under staffed and my workload is heavier, so strolling in at 10 am is not a good idea. I just need to get this off my chest. Am I pushing too hard in preparation for this race and tweeking myself out at the lack of visual evidence?
Oh god, I hate hate hate that I'm focusing on the fucking numbers, but it's worse cuz this body doesn't feel like doing much either.
Maybe it's the gloomy weather that's got me down.
I've packed my running gear, maybe my mood will change this afternoon.
So, initially upon stepping off the work scale, I dismiss the information, it's electronic and subject to error in my opinion! The patients at work are always getting their wts wrong, which drives the dietician crazy ....anyways, I did my track workout on tuesday and yesterday was a rest day, but today I can't get going.
It's thursday, which as I've stated before, we're under staffed and my workload is heavier, so strolling in at 10 am is not a good idea. I just need to get this off my chest. Am I pushing too hard in preparation for this race and tweeking myself out at the lack of visual evidence?
Oh god, I hate hate hate that I'm focusing on the fucking numbers, but it's worse cuz this body doesn't feel like doing much either.
Maybe it's the gloomy weather that's got me down.
I've packed my running gear, maybe my mood will change this afternoon.
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
Down Time
Kinda tired today. Yesterday's efforts were short but intense. I headed over to the highschool track near my facility and tried my hand at sprinting. Up till now I've been feeling so strong and accomplished with my running. Upping the ante has certainly kept my ego in check. It would be very easy to get discouraged, pout, piss and moan, but I know better. This thing, this running thing that I've grown to love and need in my life is not easy. It pushes me to expect more from myself, it makes me accountable for what I eat, how much I sleep, how much I hydrate. It is wicked hard most days and then every so often so incredibly effortless. I will get faster and stronger and maybe develop some patience along the way.
Yesterday, I ran as hard as I could halfway around the track and slowly jogged a full lap, repeated this 4x's and then I raced up the bleachers (14 steps) 20x's. Total time 30 minutes.
I also, performed arm exercises several times throughout the day w/my patients using
4# dumbbells.
Today, I'm sticking close to home. Stretching, hydrating and trying to clean my house, something that usually takes the back burner to just about everything.
I just saw the movie "On the Edge" starring Bruce Dern. T thought I would like it cuz it's about trail running in Marin. He's been so incredibly supportive of my efforts.
One of my favorite scenes in the movie is when the main character is sitting talking to his dad and he notices the house has been cleaned and the dad says basically "when the worlds a mess clean up your nest!"
So, on that note I'm going to spend all day reclaiming my dining room and try to get a start on baby quilt #2.
Yesterday, I ran as hard as I could halfway around the track and slowly jogged a full lap, repeated this 4x's and then I raced up the bleachers (14 steps) 20x's. Total time 30 minutes.
I also, performed arm exercises several times throughout the day w/my patients using
4# dumbbells.
Today, I'm sticking close to home. Stretching, hydrating and trying to clean my house, something that usually takes the back burner to just about everything.
I just saw the movie "On the Edge" starring Bruce Dern. T thought I would like it cuz it's about trail running in Marin. He's been so incredibly supportive of my efforts.
One of my favorite scenes in the movie is when the main character is sitting talking to his dad and he notices the house has been cleaned and the dad says basically "when the worlds a mess clean up your nest!"
So, on that note I'm going to spend all day reclaiming my dining room and try to get a start on baby quilt #2.
Sunday, January 29, 2006
Pushing Real Hard
Awoke this morning mildly sore from yesterday's gym workout and my 1.5 hr deep tissue massage. I should've hydrated better too!
I headed up to Nimitz trail again, and being in an adventurous mood, I veered off the beaten path and discovered a new trail ( and no, I didn't get lost this time!)
The gradual climb along the single track led to more gorgeous green pastures. While wet, the ground was in pretty decent shape the first half mile or so, then things started getting slippery. I scooted over to the farside of the trail trying to stay on the grassy parts, which seemed to work for awhile.
It was so beautiful, the sun shining and the air crisp, it was by far the best part of the run. This trail seemed to go on forever, and without my watch and my not so trusty pedometer I wasn't sure how far along I was. According to the marker on the main trail I had already gone 2 miles , (and that was before I ventured off the main trail) I checked again on the single track it showed that I had only gone 1.27. Whatever!
The trip back on the single track was interesting, as I focused primarily on not slipping.
I had zero traction in some spots and my main concern was avoiding falling into a cow patty!! lol.
I read up a little on speedwork this week, and one of the things I tried to do today was sprint on hills. Let me tell yah, it kicked my ass.
Back on the main trail, I focused on my form (no rounded shoulders!!) and attacked the short but steep hill just around mile 3. A long slow recovery proceeded until around 3.4 (according to the spray painted marker on the asphalt), where with, alot less gusto I ran as fast as I could up a much longer, though not as steep hill, I didn't get too far before needing to slow down.
I now know what it means to feel your lungs burn.....holy shit!
I continued on, passing the 4 mile marker and went just a bit further to the next cattle crossing and then turned around.
Again with the sprinting, ovey.......I was petering out fast. I stopped to walk at mile 7, and then picked up again the last 1/2 mile, cursing, out loud I might add, the last little bit of incline. I accidently hit the wrong button on my pedometer, erasing all of the , albeit dubious information......but I estimate I ran a solid 7 miles..........With speedwork....... On hills!!!
The last pedometer reading read 5.27 miles in 1:49:00 and with no watch I have no idea how long I was actually out, I'm sure it was close to 2 hrs. With the walking, stopping to get the rock outta my shoe and stashing my jacket and water bottle off the trail.
Hey, I went long to boot!
My ass is whooped.
Today, T and I celebrate our 11th anniversay. Mom will be here soon and our date will include a trip to Home Depot to check out sinks and later dinner at Sea Salt. Phase One of the remodel is complete, the new cabinetry and island configuration turned out really nice.
Phase Two will commence this week. I've changed my mind at least a dozen times regarding the counter tops. How is one suppose to come to any kind of conclusion based on those 2x2 tile samples? So far the only thing I'm sure of is the granite for the island, to cut costs we're going with Corian for the rest of the counters, plus T has worked out a trade for this with our friend Dwight, an artist/Corian installer extroidinaire.
Looking forward to Miami race reports!
I headed up to Nimitz trail again, and being in an adventurous mood, I veered off the beaten path and discovered a new trail ( and no, I didn't get lost this time!)
The gradual climb along the single track led to more gorgeous green pastures. While wet, the ground was in pretty decent shape the first half mile or so, then things started getting slippery. I scooted over to the farside of the trail trying to stay on the grassy parts, which seemed to work for awhile.
It was so beautiful, the sun shining and the air crisp, it was by far the best part of the run. This trail seemed to go on forever, and without my watch and my not so trusty pedometer I wasn't sure how far along I was. According to the marker on the main trail I had already gone 2 miles , (and that was before I ventured off the main trail) I checked again on the single track it showed that I had only gone 1.27. Whatever!
The trip back on the single track was interesting, as I focused primarily on not slipping.
I had zero traction in some spots and my main concern was avoiding falling into a cow patty!! lol.
I read up a little on speedwork this week, and one of the things I tried to do today was sprint on hills. Let me tell yah, it kicked my ass.
Back on the main trail, I focused on my form (no rounded shoulders!!) and attacked the short but steep hill just around mile 3. A long slow recovery proceeded until around 3.4 (according to the spray painted marker on the asphalt), where with, alot less gusto I ran as fast as I could up a much longer, though not as steep hill, I didn't get too far before needing to slow down.
I now know what it means to feel your lungs burn.....holy shit!
I continued on, passing the 4 mile marker and went just a bit further to the next cattle crossing and then turned around.
Again with the sprinting, ovey.......I was petering out fast. I stopped to walk at mile 7, and then picked up again the last 1/2 mile, cursing, out loud I might add, the last little bit of incline. I accidently hit the wrong button on my pedometer, erasing all of the , albeit dubious information......but I estimate I ran a solid 7 miles..........With speedwork....... On hills!!!
The last pedometer reading read 5.27 miles in 1:49:00 and with no watch I have no idea how long I was actually out, I'm sure it was close to 2 hrs. With the walking, stopping to get the rock outta my shoe and stashing my jacket and water bottle off the trail.
Hey, I went long to boot!
My ass is whooped.
Today, T and I celebrate our 11th anniversay. Mom will be here soon and our date will include a trip to Home Depot to check out sinks and later dinner at Sea Salt. Phase One of the remodel is complete, the new cabinetry and island configuration turned out really nice.
Phase Two will commence this week. I've changed my mind at least a dozen times regarding the counter tops. How is one suppose to come to any kind of conclusion based on those 2x2 tile samples? So far the only thing I'm sure of is the granite for the island, to cut costs we're going with Corian for the rest of the counters, plus T has worked out a trade for this with our friend Dwight, an artist/Corian installer extroidinaire.
Looking forward to Miami race reports!
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
Running on Instinct
The trails at Joaquin Miller are very pretty, but Brandy and I were a little disappointed to have to be on leash:( A few places along sunset trail or was it sequoia? (more about my getting semi-lost later) were in need of some maintenance , at one point, we came across a fallen tree and but were able to crawl through and continue on. Lot's of roots and rocks, good times, oh yeah!
Despite my efforts to eat well and get good sleep lastnight, T and I stayed up too late discussing the kitchen. My attempt at compromising backfired and well we've just decided to let me design the kitchen and he gets the rest of the house.
Anyways, I was tired at the start of this run, even after eating cereal, a banana and a gel. From the get go I told myself "this will be short no need to go long today." The trail started out hilly and only confirmed the fact that I was going to make it a short one.
You know how one trail leads to another , and another , and another........I tried sticking to one trail but it ended before I wanted to stop so I jumped onto a second trail, leaving
an arrow made of sticks to keep me on course and it worked, but once I got past my marker on the turnaround I realized none of the scenery looked familiar.
I definitely didn't remember seeing a comfort station on the way in, cuz if I had, I wouldn't of had to pee in the bushes when I first arrived. lol
I could hear the traffic on Joaquin Miller Rd. and it was 11:30 am ........No need to panic, (I kinda giggled at the thought of those diehard trail hounds, running at night w/headlamps, oh lord not something I'd be very good at) but I was tired and really didn't know where I was. The not knowing where I was, must've set off an adreneline rush cuz I ended up running for an hour.
Then I stopped, retraced my steps and headed towards the road.
Still, nothing is looking even remotely familiar.
I climb a little hill and spot my car 30 or so yrds away.
Uhh! go figure. I must've ran past the entrance on the way back.
Note to self: Stick to familiar ground when your tired.
Beautiful place to run though.
I will definitely return when rested.
I'd bring a human buddy if I had one who ran!
Despite my efforts to eat well and get good sleep lastnight, T and I stayed up too late discussing the kitchen. My attempt at compromising backfired and well we've just decided to let me design the kitchen and he gets the rest of the house.
Anyways, I was tired at the start of this run, even after eating cereal, a banana and a gel. From the get go I told myself "this will be short no need to go long today." The trail started out hilly and only confirmed the fact that I was going to make it a short one.
You know how one trail leads to another , and another , and another........I tried sticking to one trail but it ended before I wanted to stop so I jumped onto a second trail, leaving
an arrow made of sticks to keep me on course and it worked, but once I got past my marker on the turnaround I realized none of the scenery looked familiar.
I definitely didn't remember seeing a comfort station on the way in, cuz if I had, I wouldn't of had to pee in the bushes when I first arrived. lol
I could hear the traffic on Joaquin Miller Rd. and it was 11:30 am ........No need to panic, (I kinda giggled at the thought of those diehard trail hounds, running at night w/headlamps, oh lord not something I'd be very good at) but I was tired and really didn't know where I was. The not knowing where I was, must've set off an adreneline rush cuz I ended up running for an hour.
Then I stopped, retraced my steps and headed towards the road.
Still, nothing is looking even remotely familiar.
I climb a little hill and spot my car 30 or so yrds away.
Uhh! go figure. I must've ran past the entrance on the way back.
Note to self: Stick to familiar ground when your tired.
Beautiful place to run though.
I will definitely return when rested.
I'd bring a human buddy if I had one who ran!
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
Cuz I'm feeling hella good!
Had my 1st run of the year over at Caesar chavez this am. The weather is so great right now it's got me in a spring mood. I believe I'm developing a bit of... Dare I say...Discipline. I didn't necessarily feel like running today cause I'd like to go for a longer run on my day off tomorrow, but I'm pushing myself harder these days in prep for my 10k. My theory is that if I can push on days when I don't feel like running I'll build endurance for when the going gets rough. The trick is not to push too hard on those days, so this morning just 3.52 in 33:38 with some good stretching, nothing crazy. Tonight we'll have chicken and whole wheat pasta, I'll get good sleep and take on Joaquin Miller tomorrow.
I answered an e-mail from a mommy running grp. leader, the last time one of these moms contacted me asking for pace info...I apparently was too fast and she begged off.......me too fast ha!!! I guess it's all relative. Hopefully I can find some local gals to run with, on the weekends I've noticed a grp. of women leaving as I arrive up at the Nimitz trail.......I have thought about getting an earlier start to check them out but haven't so far. I'm not an introvert exactly but it's not easy for me to introduce myself to other runners. So weird I know.
Day 2 of the remodel and things are looking good...Luckily the half of the kitchen with stove is accessible so cooking is doable.
Have a great day.
I answered an e-mail from a mommy running grp. leader, the last time one of these moms contacted me asking for pace info...I apparently was too fast and she begged off.......me too fast ha!!! I guess it's all relative. Hopefully I can find some local gals to run with, on the weekends I've noticed a grp. of women leaving as I arrive up at the Nimitz trail.......I have thought about getting an earlier start to check them out but haven't so far. I'm not an introvert exactly but it's not easy for me to introduce myself to other runners. So weird I know.
Day 2 of the remodel and things are looking good...Luckily the half of the kitchen with stove is accessible so cooking is doable.
Have a great day.
Monday, January 23, 2006
So, the kitchen remodel has officially begun. This is our first home and the only thing we've done thus far is the foundation, suffice it to say this is a more interesting improvement, aesthetically speaking. I moved the computer into the living room and the sewing machine is back in the dining room along with most of my kitchen. On Wednesday we go look at counter top surfaces, we're thinking granite and/or corian.
No doubt this isn't very interesting especially w/o pictures (I'm working on that by the way) but as I've found journaling my progress with running and sewing helpful (for motivation and stress relief!) I'm hoping the same will be true for the remodel.
T and I have had HUGE fights over this remodel for months long before anything ever got started. This project has been on and off for over a year and I didn't know until last week that we were actually going through with it. In fact T and the contractor played phone tag all weekend and we only found out lastnight that he would be starting today, so we spent most of the evening clearing out the kitchen. The lines of communication definitely breakdown when we're tired and while my man can juggle many many irons at a time, he often fails to keep me informed and it doesn't sit well as I HATE surprises.
So, I'm a bit of control freak. I like timeliness and lists. I want to know who's coming and who's not coming. I can wing it if I have to and I consider myself a fairly flexible person, but not in the morning before I've had coffee, which is exactly the time T mentioned that he would not be here when the contractor came this morning cuz he had to take his mom to the dentist. (such a good son, i'm a bad wife!) So, I dealt with the contractor, nothing too technical but man I gotta cool out. In retrospect (see why I need write this?) I can see what a turd I was this morning. I'd go for a run if I wasn't so darn tired.
Heavy sigh :(
No doubt this isn't very interesting especially w/o pictures (I'm working on that by the way) but as I've found journaling my progress with running and sewing helpful (for motivation and stress relief!) I'm hoping the same will be true for the remodel.
T and I have had HUGE fights over this remodel for months long before anything ever got started. This project has been on and off for over a year and I didn't know until last week that we were actually going through with it. In fact T and the contractor played phone tag all weekend and we only found out lastnight that he would be starting today, so we spent most of the evening clearing out the kitchen. The lines of communication definitely breakdown when we're tired and while my man can juggle many many irons at a time, he often fails to keep me informed and it doesn't sit well as I HATE surprises.
So, I'm a bit of control freak. I like timeliness and lists. I want to know who's coming and who's not coming. I can wing it if I have to and I consider myself a fairly flexible person, but not in the morning before I've had coffee, which is exactly the time T mentioned that he would not be here when the contractor came this morning cuz he had to take his mom to the dentist. (such a good son, i'm a bad wife!) So, I dealt with the contractor, nothing too technical but man I gotta cool out. In retrospect (see why I need write this?) I can see what a turd I was this morning. I'd go for a run if I wasn't so darn tired.
Heavy sigh :(
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